I'm pretty sure I'm Divergent, now.

So in the year 2015 I'm going to try to keep better track of my reading. I read in 2014, quite a few things, but when I go through goodreads I'm constantly thinking "did I read that? or did I just add it to that ever growing list of things-to-read and think I read it?" Or even worse, buy a book that turns out I did read it. Great.

So this afternoon I finished a book I started earlier in the week, can I count it as my first book for 2015? I guess I'll come to that later, right now I can't contain my thoughts about this series. So if you haven't read the full Divergent series (Divergent, Insurgent, and Allegiant I haven't read Four yet and I can't decide if I'm going to because it's a prequel. I don't deal with prequels. But I have it. On my shelf. Constantly staring me down.) You should stop reading this now, because THERE WILL BE SPOILERS.

I repeat: If you haven't read Divergent, Insurgent, and Allegiant DO NOT CONTINUE READING.

So, let me start off by saying a broke a few rules with these books. Firstly, I watched the movie first before I read Divergent. But I think in this case, it made me love both more. I loved the movie first, and I've become obsessed with the books, so they kind of tied together for me. Were there differences in the movie than the book? Sure, there always will be and as a lover of both things literature and cinema I have come to accept this flaw in the entertainment industry.

The second rule I broke happened in the third book. This is where it starts getting spoily so if you didn't listen to me before, seriously stop reading right now. now. now. Ok seriously, now.

When Tris dies, I had to re-read that chapter, because come. on. What. WHAT. And I think the part that kills me the most is that you didn't even expect it, which I personally love (after the fact of course). It's like one second they're in the middle of the action again and then the next, boom. And OF COURSE she would have completed her mission in the process, and OF COURSE she did it all to save her loser, no good, back-stabbing, brother. Because that's just Tris.

Oh yeah, the rule I broke, I had to skip a couple pages chapters ahead to see if it was real, if she really didn't survive and they were just stringing me along. But when I saw that they'd told Four, I knew they wouldn't joke about it with him, and it was true.

And although it was frustrating and I complained to everyone about how terrible the third book was and I couldn't believe some of the things they had pulled, it really is the best ending to the series. Living happily ever after wouldn't have worked out, Tobias finding someone else wouldn't have worked out. Veronica Roth really did those Divergents some justice (after making them run around the whole series, and sending Tris on that seriously emotional roller-coaster, I think it was time.)

So in conclusion, I seriously loved this series. And if you have read the whole thing, I need you to email me so I have someone to discuss the fatal ending. Because omg, Roland's getting annoyed with me talking about it all the time.

Also, I'm Divergent.